Saturn will go direct on September 18th, 2019 after spending the last 5 months in retrograde. Saturn is the planet of “time”, karma, lessons and hard work. In traditional astrology, Saturn represents the Father. He is stern and seeks to teach us to be responsible, hard working, and disciplined, yet he is loving. He seeks for us to learn the consequences of our actions, thoughts and behaviors (Karma), and how we must be patient and disciplined (time) while releasing control over the outcome.
Saturn is currently in his home sign of Capricorn, along with Pluto the planet of re-birth, and the South Node of the past. While retrograde, Saturn took us back to old wounds rooted in Capricorn that needed to be transformed and come up for release. These included our father wounds, abandonment, lack of self-love, control, and limitations. He has been testing us for the last 5 months to see where we have been playing out our unconscious wounds, where have failed to support ourselves and have been looking for external love rather than internal. His question to us is, “do you get it yet?”. We are everything we need; love and support must come from the internal before it will ever be experienced externally. Old patterns were re-played and re-lived so we could come face to face with them. Now he is going direct and we are going to experience a real change of pace.
For those that have understood the lessons and been brave enough to face the pain and look at where we have continuously abandoned OURSELVES, through self-criticism, judgment and abandonment, we now receive the blessings and abundance we have worked so hard for. The truth is that most of humanity have deep father wounds. The Cabal created such a toxic masculine dynamic on the planet, most either did not have a connection with their earth fathers or they exhibited the toxic masculine traits: power over, control, aggression, rage, aloofness, lack of emotion, etc.
We then sought outside ourselves to fill these voids. The father figure, the protector and provider was not there for us when we were children, so we tried to find it externally. We filled the void with materialism, stubbornly clinging to hold onto power, money or possessions in order to make us feel secure or safe. Or, we sought another being to make us feel safe and comforted. Both are forms of giving our power away. Our inner masculine is there to teach us that we are independent, sovereign beings of great strength, beyond what we can even fathom in these Earth vessels.
This is why this transit of Saturn in Capricorn has been so potent, so heartbreaking and difficult. He has been crying out to us that WE are who we have been waiting for. We are the strength, we are the love, and we are the warriors. There is nothing and no one outside of us and we need except to stop abandoning ourselves. Our authenticity and our truth is what keeps us in our hearts and there, we are always taken care of.
As Saturn turns direct we gain clarity on why we experienced what we did and the lessons that were being instilled in us. For those that failed the lessons again, they will get one last re-do as Saturn moves towards the South Node of the past. This will be a more intense and powerful lesson to be learned, but all paths are to be respected. We are moving towards the very talked about conjunction of Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn in January of 2020 which will be an epic moment of history in this ascension.
Pluto has also been in retrograde all year long and will go direct on October 3rd, 2019. Together, with Saturn and the South Node, these three planets are pushing us towards the greatest transformation and simultaneous crumbling of the old this planet has ever seen. This is the final collapse, the grand finale to all we have worked for. The message during the last 3 months of 2019 are DO NOT GIVE UP. It may feel like your entire reality is collapsing, every fiber of your being is exhausted and ready to lay down in surrender, but do not give in. This is the moment to gather every last bit of strength you have and push forward like you have never pushed before. Mother God, Gaia, Great Spirit is giving everything she has to push us past the finish line. Do not fail her, do not abandon her, but join her.
Join her in strength, self-love, and courage. Be the Rainbow Warriors that have so long been prophesied as returning with White Buffalo Calf Woman. The ending to this story is already complete, Mom won, love won. It is only through our human perception we feel defeated and ready to give up. It is always darkest before the dawn, and on the other side of this final push is the greatest and grandest dream of loving coming true that we can ever imagine.